Nobody’s Perfect … I Gotta Work It

I confess that I am my own worst enemy. Nobody is harder on me than ME. I’m not sure who or what to thank for giving me such a complex (Mom? Dad? Sibling placement? Private school? Church?), but either way, I get stuck sometimes on the ways I am just not perfect yet … I know, I know. “Everyone makes mistakes … everyone has those days … everyone knows what, what I’m talking about … everyone gets that way.” Thank you, Hannah Montana, for reminding me that nobody is perfect. (As ridiculous as it is, I actually find some breathing room when I listen to that song … so inspirational. *sheepish laugh*)

Anyway, I have this innate need to be the best person that I can be, to succeed in all avenues I attempt. I don’t do it because I want to be better than other people (none of this stepping on people as I climb to the top) … it’s more about the elation I feel when I’ve done my very best and pleased those I care about. So, when I fall short of my personal goals or drop one of the many balls I am juggling, I tend to get pretty down about it. And that leads to high blood pressure, combined with a personal struggle of self-deprecation, and maybe (on occasion … like this week), a binge on candy conversation hearts. Whoops.

But, in my life, it’s all about personal growth. If I don’t grow from my experiences, then I don’t see the point. I’ve had some pretty heavy stuff dumped on me over the years (who hasn’t?) and I could sit around and moan, or I could take the experience and store what knowledge I gained from it to help me at a later time. I have to move ahead and grow from those dumpings or I would be miserable. But, it’s still a choice I have to make every time I get down.

And it doesn’t mean that I don’t need some time to moan/mourn/deal when curve balls are thrown at me. Sometimes I just need a mental health day where I start out engaged in a lot self-reflection and dramatic musings of “what-if” that ultimately lead to my collapse into much-needed sleep until …

I’m over it. A new day must start sometime and I don’t want to be left behind. So, deep breath … it’s all okay. I live a blessed life. And all that self-inflection gave me inspiration to be better, to persevere with the vision, and to treat each day as if it were just one more opportunity (in a limited supply) to enrich the world around me. Because, well, it is.

I’d love to hear from the rest of you perfectionists out there and how you deal with your shortcomings. Alas, I must away so the vicious cycle can reset itself … 🙂

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Comments to “Nobody’s Perfect … I Gotta Work It”

  1. You don’t know me but I am Makayla’s other mom, the one that lives in Bama. She told me I should check out your blog. So here I am enjoying it. I loved the insert on your blog from your book. May God continue to bless you with all you are trying to accomplish with your book.

  2. hey krissi!
    you dont know me but i go to school with your cousin arley. when she asked me to read the book (because i am an avid reader, i read like 24/7) you wrote,Phantom Island book one: wind, at first i was a little sketchy,
    i dont realy like fantasy books that much. they are ok but not my favorite. then when i started to read it i loved it. really i was sooooooo good. the whole time i was on edge and i never wanted it to end. it also had just the right amount of romance in it, it wasnt all lovey-dovey yet it wasnt just plain serious. i had just gotten home from school and i didnt have any homework so i started to read. i was going to have surgery on my mouth the next day so i could stay up pretty late. i read the whole day from like 4:00 to like 11:00. the book was so funny and entertaining. i cant wait till you publish it so everyone can read it. arley said that you are already writing the second one which is soo totally awesome!!!! i cant wait till you finish that one too!!!

  3. I think being raised by a single mother, who had no college degree, but managed to instill in her children to always do your best in whatever you do might have cause Krissi to feel this way. Being a good reader and enjoying all types of reading, I always felt would make school easier and life more fun, especially being able to indulge in a character, even for a moment. There are no limits to what you can do…keep pushing as long as it is in God’s will and you enjoy it. Krissi you have been writing stories since you could write. Your books need to be published. You still need to write the story about the twins….that you wrote in middle school. Your biggest fan of perfection, of your book and of your life…MOM

  4. I juggle a lot of things: Soccer, band, work, church, friends, AP classes…
    I usually succeed at all of these, and when I don’t, I know how you feel.
    Take this current soccer season. We just played a three game tournament, and I played a mere 3 minutes of it. I don’t know what to attribute that to. Maybe its because I ran over myself with a truck last year and had to quit before the season even started. Maybe its because coach just doesn’t trust me well enough to take a starter to the bench in my stead. Maybe I just plain suck at soccer. I don’t think so, but those are the thoughts that run through my head when I sit the bench all that time. But as I sat there in the tournament, experiencing the initial symptoms of hypothermia, I figured out that its ok to not be the best at everything, and that I do have excellent talents elsewhere. I still want to play, no doubt, but it doesn’t irk me quite as much when I don’t get to. God’s got a plan for me, and who am I to tell Him that starting in soccer HAS to be a part of it? sorry its so long…

  5. Whew!
    Krissi, crazy perfectionist woman!!
    I never knew you got that upset … you hide it well. LOL.

    But, like someone said earlier, you do a whole lot of stuff that it’s only human to mess up sometimes. And also like she said, the things you mess up on are what most aspire to do.

    You are an amazing mentor, teacher, and AUTHOR. Your book was, at the least, AMAZING. I know that God will bring you an awesome agent that will take you so far! I’m so honored to have read it, and to somewhat be a character!! 🙂

    I know I’ve told you this before, but I could never read a book without LOVING it, well I finished yours in what? Two weeks? That’s super crazy for me! It really was amazing! God has definately given you a gift through your writing! I can’t wait for book two!

    (upper lip face)I love you Sista K!

  6. Ar-Ar, I’m so glad you loved the book. We still haven’t discussed what you thought of Elon, the younger you. She is precious to me! Btw, what’s up with you putting your age on here, silly? As if I don’t know?

    And BJ, thanks for the comments. It’s wonderful to know that a book written for teenagers can also appeal to 47-year-olds, too. 🙂 I’m an adult who loves to read YA. It’s sometimes more fluffy than real-life adult stuff that we all have to deal with on a regular basis. LOL.

  7. Hey Krissi,
    First off I want to say that Phantom Island was amazing!!!I just became a fan of reading last year and I could only read books that captivated me some i would pick up and then put them right back down because they were boring and didnt keep my attetion. But your was fantastic it kept me interested from the first word to the last. It is definatly in my top three right up there with twilight and harry potter. It has everything you could want mestery, action, romance, comedy etc. I remeber being grounded from the book by my mom becasue all i did was eat,sleep,and read (somtimes till 3:00 in the mroning) Ive been praying and hoping that you will find a wonderful agent to get it puplished, and cant wait for book two.
    i would say anyone can read it and i recomened to all

    LOVE your favorite cousin 🙂
    (14)my age

  8. Anonther quick note to go with my 8:40 PM comment. I’m 47 years of age…young or old this book is a crowd pleaser!!!

  9. I was blessed to read your Novel “Phantom Island, Book One: Wind!!!! And I have to tell you…your book is the best one I have read in years & may I repeat YEARS!! It MUST be published!!!! I want everyone to have the chance to read and enjoy it. It captivated me from beginning to end. Wonderful story! Well balance with emotion, laughter, lessons, adventure and excitement. If you enjoy reading, this book is a must own! I have a feeling I could read it again and again and enjoy over and over. Your book was so good I felt like I was there on the island and I want to go again.

  10. I can definetly attest to this. Sometimes I feel like I have to do everything perfectly…like if I make a mistake, everyone is gonna be so disappointed. I’ve heard people say that they think I am perfect and I just wanna say, “Are you serious? I’m human and I make mistakes just like everyone else.”

    Although I have set this certain standard for me to be the best I can be, I have learned to accept the fact that I am going to make mistakes, and that when I do I can learn from them. So…eventhough I feel awful when I do make a mistake, I eventually stop dwelling on it and I just move on and try not to make that same mistake again. It can be quite difficult sometimes but I don’t guess its supposed to easy.

    Well…those are my thoughts. 🙂 God Bless!

    -Tara Lowe

  11. I can’t wait til your book is published. I love readying your blogs.

  12. All this talk about shortcomings from the out-of-this-world teacher, StuCo Sponsor, NJHS Sponsor, and soon to be VERY FAMOUS author??? Whew, next time take a breath and know that your shortcomings are what many of us aspire to achieve!
    Argentina awaits…..
    Donna Tolbert

  13. I think everyone is like that…it’s not just you. I mean, I know I do. I don’t know if I’d post a picture of me with lots of pizza crusts talking about ‘bingeing’. haha Love ya!

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